Optimism versus Realism

So it looks like month 3 hasn’t produced anything positive either. I’m trying to keep strong and continue along the road to happiness, but quite frankly there a lot of things that are coming up against us as time ticks by.

We’ve looked into our options with the house. Turns out instead of being able to extend our contract, the landlord wants to sell up. She wants to offer us first refusal, but it’s not really much help to me when I can’t get a mortgage. It’s just a bit of a sick joke really. A mortgage would be cheaper and would help us out greatly in the long run, but when your wife has a high genetic risk of cancer, then there aren’t many mortgage companies out there who will even look twice at you.

I don’t know what we are doing wrong with our donor. I know people who are trying for a baby spend months, maybe years trying to conceive and it seems early to be worrying. But when we’re not even contemplating going down the Natural Insemination route and we will only conceive by Artificial Insemination at home, then we’ve got to try and make things work for us. To be fair, I think we are going to have to get our donor checked for sperm count soon just so we don’t end up flogging a dead horse as they say.

So anyways, it’s not 100% that I’m not pregnant yet, but it’s certainly looking like it’s a negative. 2 tries down… I’m just hoping it’s all a step closer.

I’d love to stay optimistic at this point, but I’m finding it so difficult. 2014 has finally arrived and it’s the year I’ve been dreading for so long. I don’t know why it felt much better that Alice’s operation was next year as opposed to this year. It was only a day that made the difference.

I’m just so tired and it’s only the 3rd of January.

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10 Things You Don’t Know About Us

So I wrote this about both of us as I couldn’t think of 10 each!

 

1. Alice is a fantastic musician. She’s been in several bands, can pretty much play anything after 5 minutes, except stuff you blow into – dear god she’s bad at the Sax…

She’s got several music grades under her belt in Drums, guitar and bass. She’s even been known to front a band or two…

 

2. Sam was a DJ for many years. Some might say she suffered quite a bit from Peter Pan syndrome… She never wanted to grow up so she stayed in a Student environment for 13 years running Club nights, Karaokes, Rock nights and even the odd wedding and christening!

It left her with an extremely eclectic music taste, a love of Karaoke and a soft squidgy mess at many a wedding first dance.

 

3. Alice and Sam met while Sam was engaged to someone else.

A big soap opera style scandal ensued, but alls well that ends well… Perhaps it’s a story for another time.

 

4. Alice is originally from the West Midlands and met Sam while living in the Northeast.

 

5. Sam is originally from the East Midlands and met Alice while living in the Northeast.

 

6. There is 9 years between Sam and Alice…

Also there’s 9 years between Sam and Alice’s Mum. Then 9 years between Alice’s Mum and Step Dad. Then 9 years between Alice’s Step Dad and Sam’s Mum… It’s like Toby jugs but with age!

 

7. Alice and Sam have matching tattoos on their left arm. They got it on the day Sam surprised Alice with a proposal. It reads With Every Beat.

 

8. 21.12 is important to Sam and Alice and is why they got engaged on the 21st of December at 9.12pm. They then got married on the 21st of December the following year and had their first dance at 9.12pm. (Also see point 6…)

Luckily, the Mayan Calendar was wrong and the world didn’t end on their wedding anniversary, further proving that Gay marriage is not going to cause the apocalypse.

 

9. Alice and Sam have moved house 5 times in 4 years and have lived in 3 different counties in the UK.

 

10. Both Sam and Alice were brought up as only children. Although later on Alice has now become close to her half sister.

 

Bonus one…

Sam is a Gemini
Alice is a Gemini
Sam’s Parents were both Gemini’s

Even Bernie and Nala are Gemini’s…

Byron was born in March. But on Friday the 13th of course!

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Giving people like us some hope. Congratulations!!

To make a long story short: after induction, 48 hours of intermittent contractions, 7 hours of laboring without an epidural, another many hours of laboring with an epidural, increasing interventions, a fever, decreasing heart rate and, finally, an emergency cesarean, our daughter (blog name still Bingo) was born this morning. All are well.

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